This morning as our Church gathered, our pastor spoke on Esther. I was a little distracted by Kyria on more than one occasion. She was wide awake, even though it was time for her to sleep. She spit up all over herself, even though this was the one time I didn't have an extra onsie for her. She started getting gassy which caused her to get fussy, so I took her to the cry room where I couldn't hear the sermon despite the monitor. I once heard a woman talk about how easy it is to get frustrated with being a momma, when you can't even participate in the usual Sunday morning church service. Today I was reminded of this . . .
I have also heard women talk of the stay-at-home drudgery that comes with cleaning constantly, and changing dirty diapers. These women would probably lose it if their baby had exploded from both ends numerous times in two hours, both had to change outfits five plus times, momma hadn't eaten all day at 2:30, and the plans for the day had to be changed thanks to it all. . . . This actually did happen to me one day this week. Yet, all I could do was laugh! Seriously, it was a Holy Spirit moment! I found myself so thankful to God for allowing me to stay at home with my baby girl! Who could love her, care for her, and clean up after her better than her momma!?
So back to the sermon this morning. I love the story of Esther! She was young and beautiful, but most importantly she was courageous! She wasn't afraid to do the hard stuff! She was even willing to die in effort to save her people. In the end, she is granted her request, God is glorified, and she is blessed for speaking out even when it would have been easier to stay quiet!
For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father’s family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”
Where are you right now, this very moment!? God wants to use you right here! God has placed you in this very place for such a time as this . . . to step up, do the hard stuff, and bring glory to His Name! Me? I am a brand new stay-at-home momma who is changing lots of dirty diapers, cleaning up spit-up, and doing more laundry than I could have ever imagined! Yet, God has placed me here for such a time as this. This little girl is precious in His sight. I have been blessed with one of His children, and it is my privelege to take care of her! I pray that she will grow up to glorify Him. Who knows what that will look like, but having a momma who loves her, who is willing to teach her about our Savior, and do a little dirty work along the way, is a trivial part of the process! :)