Every evening at the same time an alarm on my phone rings with it's familiar tune. It's time to take my BC (birth control)! Now before you get mad at me for writing about this - whether it's at the fact I am currently taking BC, or because I am talking about possibly going off - hear my story, and know that my heart is truly seeking God's wisdom. My hope is that this topic will get you thinking, just as it has me.
See, taking birth control was never really something I questioned. While in college I knew many girls who, after getting engaged, had their alarms go off at the same time every night to remind them of their BC. A few months before I was to be married, I talked to a Christian friend who recommended I see her gynecologist to get a prescription for birth control. The gynecologist was a Christian woman, and sounded very nice. I set an appointment, and the sweet little lady prescribed the pills to me. She recommended that I set that alarm on my phone to make sure I wouldn't forget to take the pills.
My husband and I had discussed children, and it wasn't that we didn't want kids at all. In fact, we are both very excited to be a "momma" and "daddy" someday. Unfortunately, I came into the marriage with a lot of student loan debt. Although I will say it was totally worth it because I met my husband while attending SBU, if I knew then what I know now I probably would not have mindlessly taken out so many loans. Regardless, that is the situation. Part of my plan for going into teaching was being able to get some of my loans reimbursed if I worked for 5 years. Once we got married, my husband (the nerd - thank you Dave Ramsey), planned out how we could get these loans paid off as soon as possible. He even has it down to the month we will be debt free! Because getting out of debt was our priority, children was just not something we considered. We knew that once we did have a baby, I would no longer teach but stay at home. In order to do this, we wanted to get all our student loans paid off first. Of course, everyone we talked to supported us and praised us for being so wise.
About nine months or so after we got married, I started thinking that maybe I was just being selfish. Maybe God wanted me to stay at home and have babies, but because I wanted a comfortable life I had made excuses. I humbly presented my thoughts to Skyler. He is the rational one of the two of us, and after listening to my flaring emotions he was able to reason with me. The subject was dropped. Until a few months later. Skyler's sister, a family relative, and I were all talking about birth control and some of the bad things we had heard about it. I said something along the lines of "I guess you have to choose whether to stay on the pill and trust God will give you a baby if he wants you to have one, or go off and trust that He won't give you one if He doesn't." To this Dezi replied with several strong reasons to go off it, and recommended we look into Natural Family Planning. Now, Skyler and I very much respect his sister. So, I brought the subject up, and again we agreed we would continue taking the pill.
Around the same time Skyler and I were beginning to change the way we eat, and purposed to stay away from the harmful chemicals we had been putting into our bodies. Of course, birth control came to mind again! Not very long after that we had Kenda and Houston from Giles Ranch to our house for dinner. So many good conversations took place, and as we were talking about future plans, our debt, etc. The BC came up. I had mentioned how the Bible is right on with debt making you "a slave to the lender." There are so many things we might be doing already - like having kids, but we are in debt. Houston said, "so have them, kids are more important than the debt. If God gives you a baby He will provide for His child, and that might answer your questions concerning your future."
Bam! That really hit us! We stayed up talking almost all night, and the next day we had decided we were going off the BC. I needed to pick some up at the pharmacy that day (yes I waited until the last minute - I am the free spirit. Thanks again Dave Ramsey!). So we decided to forego the purchase. We were taking a family trip that weekend, and after thinking about it on the ride down we reversed our decision and decided it was not one to be made so quickly! After all, we didn't know anything about Natural Family Planning, and maybe we should hold off until we had done our research. The subject was closed again for several months.
Then, just last week I came across several blog posts by
Kelly @ Generation Cedar on the topic of birth control. When I first found her blog I didn't even know she was so passionate about this topic. This brought the questions up again, and my husband and I have had many good discussions.
Finally, this week when we went to visit Kenda and Houston, he had mentioned ". . . for those ten kids you are going to have," and the conversation came up again. Skyler and I decided maybe God was trying to tell us something, and we committed to look into it more deeply, and pray fervently for God's wisdom. This week, while looking on a blog about femininity I found a book called
Start Your Family. I was able to read the introduction, and it sounds so much like Skyler and I's situation. I am very excited to read this book, as is he!
So that's our story, and we feel that God us moving us in this direction. It seems at every stage in our life God has challenged us to go counter cultural and follow hard after Him. When we wanted to "date" he challenged us with courtship through the book
Choosing God's Best. When we were talking about marriage, he challenged us with
A Sacred Marriage by Gary Thomas. After getting married, he challenged me with
Created to Be His Helpmeet by Debi Pearl. When we thought we could just eat whatever we wanted and exercise it off, He challenged us with
The Maker's Diet. Now he has us raising our own food, and depending less and less on the dollar. Perhaps this is just the next book He is using, along with the Bible and wise council, to lead us further in the direction He wants us to go. Here are a few quotes, comments, and thoughts that have really got us thinking about this idea of getting rid of that BC alarm:
First, I wanted to search and find where Birth Control came from. How long has it been around? Well, birth control has always been around, but up until recently it was considered immoral to use, especially by the church. Birth Control came right out of the feminist movement, when mothering became considered "unworthy of educated women's time and talents." The results of that have been very devastating to the family unit, our nation, and the world. Now there are even groups like VHEM and No Kidding that have said, "Each time another one of us decides to not add another one of us to the burgeoning billions already squatting on this ravaged planet, another ray of hope shines through the gloom." Yikes! Needless to say, the fact that birth control was born out of this mentality makes me very leary.
In a world that considers children a burden it is important for us to recognize that children are considered a blessing from the Lord. Consider these verses: Genesis 1:28, Genesis 9:1, Genesis 9:7, Genesis 49:25, Pslam 127:1-5, Psalm 139:13-16, John 16:21, Matthew 18:1-3, Proverbs 22:6, Isaiah 54:13, Psalm 112:1-10, Dueteronomy 6, Ephesians 6:4, Dueteronomy 7:14, James 1:17, Mark 10:14, Isaiah 8:18, Isaiah 51:1-23, Genesis 30:1, Luke 17:2, Dueteronomy 29:29, 1 Timothy 5:14, Psalms 128:1-6, Genesis 33:5, Jeremiah 1:5, Titus 2:4, Galatians 1:15, Micah 2:9, Malachi 2:15, Joshua 4:5-7.
Is our thinking reflecting the world's view of children or God's view?
Let me paraphrase and quote a few things I have read from various sources:
If you ask your grandparents why they had children they would say, "That's what married couples did." Having kids is now a choice, not an expectation. Now we are told having kids is a risk, and it's easier to just not have them at all. ~ From
Start Your Family
"Like most people throughout history, we have always considered marriage and parenthood a package deal. We have always believed that children are a blessing from the Lord. Until recently, so did everyone else. For many generations Christian couples couldn't enter the holy state of matrimony with out being confronted with that fact. Just before taking their vows aspiring husbands and wives traditionally hear the minister remind everyone attending the ceremony that God ordained marriage 'for the procreation of children, to be brought up in the fear and nurture of the Lord, and to praise his holy Name." (Book of Common Prayer, 1662)
~ Kurt Bruner
Having kids therefore is really the fruit of two becoming one! What a greater picture of this, than to have a child!
Kelly @ Generation Cedar even makes a great point about how marriage is a picture of Christ and the church. Just as the church does not turn away more disciples, we should not turn away more disciples (children) from the family unit.
"Budget for everything except kids. Kids aren't just another expense, they're wealth."
~ From the book
Start Your Family
"Something as grand and miraculous as a baby goes beyong the realm of calculated rationality into the realm of faith and risk."
~From the book
Start Your Family
"What makes you think you will be fertile when you're ready? You can't assume you are in control of when you can have kids."
~From the book
Start Your Family
Gary Thomas, in his book
A Sacred Marriage, talks about how marriage was never intended to make us happy, but to make us holy. He says the same in
Sacred Parenting. Having children causes a couple to grow spiritually, and become more like Christ.
Do you think God will give you one of His children (because they are not really ours, but His) if he thought you couldn't provide for it? ~Houston Giles
God can be trusted to do "exceedingly abundantly more than you can ask or imagine."
~From Gods Word and quoted in the book
Start Your Family
Whew! That was a long post! If you are still with me, thanks so much for taking time to read this. I would love to hear your thoughts and/or experiences with this. As it can be a sensitive subject, please keep comments to those that will edify and build one another up. Thank you!